Funny Thing is..were still talking..why? who the hell are you and why did I have to fall for you.

Damnit, i was doing so good. I was avoiding you. I was avoiding everything to do with you. You come back here to ask me to get back together with you. I say no. You tell me the next day your getting back together with erin. I feel fucking terrible. That was two weeks ago and I still am feeling like shit. FUck you. I went into your job tonight..why? why did i even have to see you. You gave me the nastiest look. You couldnt even wave to me. fuck you. fine you wanted a friendship, so i tried. and now..you think your better than me because your with someone, yah awesome. You know, i cant stand you. When I leave, We will no longer have anything to do with one another. i might have made a mistake of stopping by and waving at you at your job, but we were supposed to be friends, at least thats what you wanted. No more, I will not do this anyfuckingmore. Goodbye Joshua, Goodbye and Goodluck with your 33 year old fucking disgusting girlfriend..i seriously am hating you right now. and probably for a long time. Goodbye. Fucker.

Yah as much as I wanted to make it work...it's not going to. Your busy. And I get that. so thanks for chatting with me, talking to me, befriending me, but we just live too far away from eachother. and I'm not right for you anyways. Thanks though. <3 Good luck with school. Life. Girls. And your new job. later john paul.

I dont know what to think. I knew you'd come back to me..and now that you have..I dont want it. I moved on and no matter how clear I make it to you, you just dont seem to get it. Please listen to me: I DO NOT LOVE YOU LIKE I USED TO. YOU BROKE MY HEART AND I AM OVER IT. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU, BUT I NEED TO WORRY ABOUT ME.

I hate boys.

I miss you more than ever. I hate your with her. I can't stand it. She doesn't know what's good for you like I do. It's breaking my heart.

I almost lost you today due to my dishonesty, I'm a bitch. and I'm sorry for lying. I'll work on it. Definitely work on it.

what do you do when your parent might pass away? :/

It's funny how one day you make a decision that you think is going to be the best decison of your life..and realize it's the one that has really ruined it.

seeing anti-flag and the street dogs next weekend, so that's exciting. Why does everyday seem like it goes by WAY too fast? It's already been a year since the virginia tech shooting, wow.. i cant wait until I can afford to get out of this town and away from the winter crowd.Their always around it seems, even after april. :(

Yay, we finally got the record player we wanted to get. It's awesome. This is all :)

whats been up..busy-ness, thats what. the weather has been really nice out lately, and that's awesome. heeelllooo october <3

best buy, here i come.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! <3

Last day of my "teens"..official adulthood in numbers..here I come.

Against Me!...thank you for putting on an unforgettable performance <3

Going to new york in a few weeks, cant wait. Warped Tour just after that, yay! summer is going smoothly despite the weather, yuck.

2 jobs over the summer, yikes. Got a longboard a couple of days ago, it's awesome. that's about it. ha. later.

Yep, I finally did it, I cut my hair to my shoulders, it's all flippy because it's layered, I was going for one of gwen stefani's hairstyle way back in the day, but my hair is wavy, so it didnt work out so well, but I absolutely love it. :)

Got the job at the center, yay! CHildren here I come.